The Lights Behind Your Eyes Grow Bright With Learning

<p>Just a few minutes ago, you and I had a conversation about only lord knows what do. I was calling you some silly name and you smiled the most beautiful smile and babbled on in your baby vernacular. And as i watched you, i thought back to the day you were born. So frail, tiny, and oblivious to your surroundings. And now three months later, i take joy when i observe you taking in your world and making attempts to make sense of it all. I love you.

Overly Consumed With Love For You

people were afraid of your life
but even before your life was manifested on 9/14/2011
i only wanted to hold you and look into your eyes
because i knew that in them
i would find my peace, my reason for existence
your birth mended wounds created eons ago
your smile makes my pains nonexistent
you are my one true love. . . 
God's gift to a woman with a broken heart


I <3 you

Dear Zyon

I write this letter to the young man I know you will grow to be. I hope that your life up to this point has been everything you've ever wanted. As your mother, I have strived from the moment of conception to give you everything you need and deserve, and that's not just speaking in terms of finances. I broke my back and my heart to make our family work and I will never hesitate to break the bank to ensure that you are taken care of. I am not just your mother, but I am the person closest to you. No other can love you the way I have and always will. So when life starts to get a little rough, don't hesitate to turn to your mama to talk. I have always been a great listener and I'm always down to help you figure out a solution to any problem. I know what it can be like to feel isolated from your parents and I don't want us to have that kind of relationship. I will always have an open heart, mind, and ears, ready to assist you on this hard journey called life. I love you and I am so proud that you are who you are.

Love,
Mama

Just Want You to Know

I've fallen in and out of love with different men. . . but having you has given me the feeling of a love like I've never known. A love I can't even fully describe. See, I prayed to Allah to bless me with a king, and he saw fit to bless me with yor essence. From my womb blossomed the beginnings of a real man. One sent to humble me. I love you.

Love,
Mama

Musings, Autumn 2011

I watch the leaves fall from the trees
making their beautiful and poetic separation from their parent
and I can think of nothing but the softness of your skin
and the way your tiny lips pucker when I've kissed you one time too many
I know one day you'll grown and leave this nest
but for now, I enjoy the expressions that cross your face
barely registering because your eyebrows are still forming
there will come a time when you're too big for mommy to hold
but I've fallen in love with the way your precious toes separate when I feed you
and my heart grows an extra chamber to store my love for you whenever you open those beautiful eyes
and your look spells out. . . 

Mama, I Love you

I know I'm raising you to be a man

but can't you be my baby forever?

More Pictures of You

this was you, not too long after you were born. . .
your cry was the cutest thing. . .
it was music to my ears

this is you and TT Shidah who loves you so much! This picture was taken the day you were born. Can you see the resemblance???

This is you and daddy on your second day of life. He couldn't put you down, so if you turn out spoiled, this is why =)



You and Me (No one could possibly love you more)

your first breath outside the womb brought me to tears

and although my vision was blurred

it was the clearest that i'd ever seen

i love you. 

You and Daddy (aka TWINS!!)

the most beautiful thing in the world to me 

You Are Surrounded by a Network of Love

Sunday, August 14, 2011, me and your dad had our babyshower. So many people came out to show their genuine support and love for you. From my friends to his girlfriend's family, all negativity and bad energy was put to the side to celebrate your life. It was beautiful. We got so many gifts. We prayed in your name. We laughed and had such a good time! Your Aunt Rashidah aka TT Shidah, along with TT Jessicousin, Uncle Pierre, and TT Simone helped make the shower an amazing event full of love, laughter, gifts, and good food. If I didn't know of my support network, I know of it now. I know that I have different people I can go to for many different needs, outside of your loving family. When you get older, I'll show you pictures and tell you all about it. I just want you to know that your life has been wrapped in a blanket of love and security, and you aren't even here yet.

Love,
Mama

Everything I Do is for You

I love you with anything that is everything. For you, I'd travel to the ends of the earth to find sands of time that would allow you to live forever. I just know that you are going to be something special to the world. You're already special to your little family that can't wait to meet you. Mommy loves you.

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Hey Handsome Man :)

ITS A BOY! Three words that mommy and daddy heard on Tuesday, May 10, 2011. We saw you on the ultrasound, moving around and letting us know your a baby who likes your privacy. But eventually you opened your legs for mommy and showed your tiny manhood. And i love you. I can't wait until you get here. I love you.

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You Are Loved

Last night, I talked with your daddy. He's coming around. He's scared; but he's ready to love you. He's hoping you're a girl, I'd like a boy, but I'm happy with a healthy baby ♥

mommy     

daddy

 

all that's missing is you ♥

Family ♥

These are the cousins who are closest in age to you on Mommy's side of the family; Samariya is 2 and Dazariya is 1. These are Tee tee Mia's babies.

I Felt You Move

Yesterday afternoon, while I was napping and catching up on much needed rest, I felt you move. It was a subtle movement at first, and I almost mistook it for my tummy grumbling. So I woke up and waited. And you moved again ♥ And you've been moving ever since. Its not the most comfortable feeling in the world, but emotionally, its one of the best feelings I've ever experienced. Just knowing you're in there, moving around, preparing to make your debut soon. . . swells my heart to a size I can't even fathom. I love you. Do you love me?

-- Mom